cynthetickravings...
Sunday, October 31, 2004
it's official, i have a beer belly
... posted
at 9:04 AM by C.flava.
0 comments
Thursday, October 28, 2004
I fell in love with an ice berg that melted into my arms way below sea level... one day i woke up and she'd merged into the vast sea... impossible to cup with my bare hands... and so seperate from my form
... posted
at 11:51 AM by C.flava.
0 comments
Monday, October 25, 2004
Billie Holiday - Good morning heart ache
Good morning heartache
You old gloomy sight
Good morning heartache
Thought we said goodbye last night
I turned and tossed until it seems you heve gone
But here you are with the dawn
Wish I forget you, but you’re here to stay
It seems I met you
When my love went away
Now everyday I stop I’m saying to you
Good morning heartache what’s new
Stop haunting me now
Can’t shake you nohow
Just leave me alone
I’ve got those monday blues
Straight to sunday blues
Good morning heartache
Here we go again
Good morning heartache
You’re the one
Who knows me well
Might as well get use to you hanging around
Good morning heartache
Sit down
... posted
at 1:41 PM by C.flava.
0 comments
Friday, October 22, 2004
Jewel-
I hear the clock, it's six a.m.
I feel so far from where I've been
Got my eggs and my pancakes too
Got my maple syrup, everything but you
Break the yolks, make a smiley face
I kinda like it in my brand new place
I wipe the spots off of the mirror
Don't leave the keys in the door
Never put wet towels on the floor anymore 'cause
CHORUS
Dreams last for so long
Even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you
Called my momma, she was out for a walk
Consoled a cup of coffee but it didn't wanna talk
Picked up a paper, it was more bad news
More hearts being broken or people being used
Put on my coat in the pouring rain
Saw a movie it just wasn't the same
'Cause it was happy and I was sad
It made me miss you oh so bad
CHORUS
Go about my business, I'm doing fine
Besides, what would I say if I had you on the line
Same old story, not much to say
Hearts are broken every day
Brush my teeth and put the cap back on
I know you hate it when I leave the light on
I pick a book up
Turn the sheets down
Take a deep breath and a good look around
Put on my pj's and hop into bed
I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead
I try and tell myself it'll be all right
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight
CHORUS
... posted
at 3:31 PM by C.flava.
0 comments
Monday, October 18, 2004
there was about 5 minutes of complete flow in our drumming yesterday... when mickey haart talked about the edge of magic in drumming... he wasn't kidding at all... there is a wordless capturing of your reptilian brain when you're in a groove with others... the kinestetic feel of the drum skin... the way your body gets engulfed... what on earth would i do without drumming...
i've been really married to my drums and my power book over the last couple of months since I've been here... i almost feel like i should have a poly wedding ceremony with them... they've honestly become my best and closest friends... I'm not sure if that's a sad thing but I find them safer and more trustworthy than actual breathing and humanly dramatic people.
i wonder if you can ever escape human drama... yeah sure if I realised my nirvana maybe i'd be free... but, at the moment, i'm a relational being caught up in the whirl winds of attachment and desire, hunger, fear, passion, anger and love...
like why do we end up at Badlands all the time???? Is it the cheesy MTV videos or the blatant-diva-in-your-face drama? Somehow that dramatic feel of the place distracts me from a dullness in me that I cannot describe. Ok, I admit, i need drama... even when i think i am not being caught up in longing or emotion... i really am! there. At least I'm honest with myself.
... posted
at 1:51 PM by C.flava.
0 comments
Monday, October 04, 2004
the days are getting much colder... it wasn't even a gradual drop in temperature... it's like, ok, its officially fall... and then the sun went away... school work has been hell... I've never had to read so much my whole life in such a small amount of time and then do art about it!...
a couple of weeks ago... two butterflies flew into my living room... they were black with yellow patterms... both were identical to the other! pretty...
... posted
at 3:03 PM by C.flava.
0 comments