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Wednesday, September 28, 2005
A year ago I had a dream...
that I entered a misty apartment on fulton and 11th... it was a haven of complete peace and I was free... my heart felt at ease and all i wanted to do was lay down and day dream happiness...
this week i've been thinking....
that all that can happen right now, this moment
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Tuesday, September 27, 2005
this fever has come and gone for about 4 weeks now... right now i feel so sick, i want my mummyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
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Monday, September 26, 2005
I sat outside philz coffee for a long time yesterday... cherishing the aroma of the turkish coffee and savouring it's taste... my eye muscles were soft as if in dream state... across the street, at the bus stop sat a homeless man... he stared blankly into space... there was a kind of painful distance in his staring... i wondered how long he had been wondering the streets with that look... how long it took for him to withdraw from our world... how our world acts in an 'as if' state... 'as if' people like him didnt exist... i wondered if he had chosen to not participate... or if it had been fate... i wondered what kept me participating...
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So friday night's katrina survivors fund raiser was crazy... the story i told moved an audience to tears... it hadn't been the first time... but I'd never experienced an emotion this powerful from an audience... it's motivated me to keep telling true stories and to keep drumming...
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So I missed the love parade... it seemed as if the entire city was there... but school is school what can you do... I was treated instead to a wonderful evening with a companion i consider a dear friend... with the moon as mystical as it was that night... I can't complain...the Love Parade after party was at a secret location... it was just a weird thrill looking at the instructions to get there... 'follow the trail and turn left when you see the water. we should be there" .... how vague is that?.... i drummed my heart out with the dj.
...and my hands are officially taking a week off from drumming... it's so bruised beyond recognition....
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 i spent about 4 days on this piece... on 23rd/folsom there is an art studio... I've always been really captured by the use of the artist's layering and simplistic depth... so I wanted to try the technique as well... i'll be taking his class in a couple of weeks from now... he is such a gorgeous man... inspiring eyes and a beautiful physique... "bring a canvas or board that's about your height"... he said casually... now if i had been sensitive about being a little less than 5'2" i would have taken offence... hee... another artist that inspired me was lemoox... the first time i saw her stuff I realised how similar she and I were in terms of using womanly curves... http://www.flickr.com/photos/lemoox/sets/1008676/
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Thursday, September 22, 2005
If anyone has the time, I will be drumming at a fund raising event for the survivors of the katrina hurricane this friday, 7pm, at CIIS. It will be an improv performance with a base player and a sax... there also be other artists expressing their feelings and processing thoughts about the natural disaster.
As the entire city of Houston evacuates... I just want to wish all my friends who have family there great safety and strength.
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Friday, September 16, 2005
I'm in the midst of packing up for an awesome music festival- Earth Dance!
Over 1,000,000 attendees at Earthdance events in over 240 cities and 50 countries!
Northern Cal's event is gonna be held over 3 days in an oak forrest...
I'm not just excited... I'm disgustingly excited... especially because my 2 idols are going to be leading a gigantic drum circle... Mickey Hart and Zakir Hussein!....
Oh and it's also my first time camping out doors...
"So there's probably gonna be lotsa hairy hippie dykes out there... maybe u'll get lucky."
"Ya i'm bringing extra shavers." (NOT!!!!)
who cares about that nonsense... who cares about anything when i'm going to be surrounded by drums and music for 3 days!.... oh and we're stopping by a commune on the way home for a night.... should be an adventure...
I need this getaway so bad...
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Wednesday, September 14, 2005
I'm officially sick with the flu.
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I really need to work on my reflexes... but shots of weird x-rated mixtures left my motorskills and eyesight half gone.... let's just say I had to brush my teeth 3 times and disinfect my lips with anti-bacterial wipes... i am willing to give happy partiers a friendly peck on the lips--- once is fine, twice is pushing it... if the third time u salivate and drool on my lips, I will have to graciously retract my body away from you... what on earth were u thinking woman! u can't randomly steal my hat...mess up my hair... and tell me to fuck my friend 'already'... and then attempt to make out with me!!! rudeness!
*reclaiming composure" and on to more important issues..
brownies for my bitches was super fun! i never saw so many hot ladies in one small bar before... loved the mixture of women and the fan by the bathroom... after all that dancing... I could do with some chill air movement.
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"So how are you getting through the break up?"
"Narcissism" *wide smile*
---ok narcissism every now and then but I'm also drinking lots of ginger lemon juice.... ok no now really, I think I'm just coping by learning how to breathe all over again... my room is beginning to look like my own again... i've begun to paint, drum and dance again... no i'm not partying like a rock star... just doing the things i stopped doing... like waking up, and doing yoga stretches... popping my ipod earphones in my ears and fighting off typical- morning- mission district- male harassment... drinking Phil'z coffee...
I've stopped asking the question "where have i been?"... and begun to ask the questions, 'where am i? what can i do for u all?"
I'll end this entry with the words of Moff from Human Traffic:
"I'm making love to the music man. And believe me, I can go all night. "
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Tuesday, September 13, 2005
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Monday, September 12, 2005
time needs to pass...
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mirages get lost in sand dunes... just as reflected images are washed away by time... our memories piece together events like a dream unfulfilled... making up bits where things sank in... there are no such things as shared memories... just reflections of the moon in our own ponds.
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Wednesday, September 07, 2005
when all things fail i turn to mr hendrix, he says it better than i can
Jimi Hendrix- Bold as Love
Anger he smiles, towering in shiny metallic purple armour
Queen jealousy, envy waits behind him
Her fiery green gown sneers at the grassy ground
Blue are the life-giving waters taken for granted,
They quietly understand
Once happy turquoise armies lay opposite ready,
But wonder why the fight is on
But they’re all bold as love, yes, they’re all bold as love
Yeah, they’re all bold as love
Just ask the axis
My red is so confident that he flashes trophies of war and
Ribbons of euphoria
Orange is young, full of daring,
But very unsteady for the first go round
My yellow in this case is not so mellow
In fact I’m trying to say it’s frigthened like me
And all these emotions of mine keep holding me from, eh,
Giving my life to a rainbow like you
But, I’m eh , yeah, I’m bold as love
Yeah, yeah
Well I’m bold, bold as love (hear me talking, girl)
I’m bold as love
Just ask the axis (he knows everything)
Yeah, yeah, yeah
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Tuesday, September 06, 2005
For the first time in my life... school has become a haven... i look forward to attending classes... distracts me from the heart break and aches in my body... I'm struggling to hold everything together... I've never appreciated my room and the roof over my head this much...
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Monday, September 05, 2005
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Sunday, September 04, 2005
It's mid-night... I've been told the body holds ancient memories... ones that come alive... life after life...
Coldplay- Fix You
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
when you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
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Friday, September 02, 2005
It felt great to walk... I'd forgotten how much I loved it... and I've missed it so much...
I looked up at one of the trees outside my apartment building and got a whiff it's scent... I didnt even notice they had a scent to them... again... where on earth have I been?
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Thursday, September 01, 2005
I am contemplating a secret rendevous in Europe this thanksgiving... I've never flown anywhere like that just to see someone for a few days... but it feels like it's worth it... plus, I'll get to see a part of the world I've never seen before... who knows what the experience might bring. Fate is a strange thing. Some people emerge out of no where and you wonder where you've been your whole life. It's like an 'aha'... ok i have to ask myself the same question I've been asking myself for the last month... where on earth have I been?
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Late notice, but whoever's up for some beers is welcomed at...
Friday, Sept 2, 9 - 10 (or 10:30pm) The Canvas Gallery
Dj Amber (Cflava, Djembe)
I am going to the love parade for sure! But i never expected a drumming gig at one of the after parties :)
Saturday, Sept 24 Set time TBA, Loveparade techno renegade after-party on
a pier by the Bay
:)
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